makeup and life.

So you know how people really think objectively and like from different perspectives when they're high and like over analyze and come to insane conclusions? I do that 24/7 when I'm sober now. It's actually a little disorienting and exhausting but I wouldn't ever trade it for thinking the way most people my age think. Having multiple layers of insight on pretty much everything is pretty fucking awesome if you ask me.

Anyway, today I'm going to go blow my last $52 on the Alice in Wonderland Box of Shadows by Urban Decay. It's super limited edition, super gorgeous and super fucking cheap. They give you like.. a bajillion different eyeshadows and two full size pencil liners (their pencil liners = god. Completely smudge proof and water proof. AMAZING) and a mini primer potion. Which is awesome cuz I only have one right now and I'm super anal about using it up cuz those things are damn expensive and more necessary than mascara.

I have a really bad makeup addiction.

Wait, but one last thing, I REALLY need the Shu Uemura winged lashes. AND THEN I'll be complete.

For now.

QUESTION:

Should I dye my hair dark auburn again? I really liked it last time but I want your opinions. If it doesn't let you answer on here, answer on facebook!

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its also kinda the same color as this:

yeah, fuck it, i'm dying it tomorrow.

maroon 5

i've had you so many times but somehow i want more.

reeny reeny reeny.

rules

• no such thing as luck, its just another false perception our brains make.
• no such thing as fate, we can only try to find a path will ultimately end in happiness.
• there really are no rules when it comes to life, even though we feel we need to live by them.

I'm really sick of worrying about what I should do and what I shouldn't. Maybe I should just stop this nonsense and do whatever the fuck I want to do.

Meh another post that only makes sense to me. Sometimes you just gotta type it out..

I'm confused and jealous and feeling creative.

Odd combination, much?

I want to do something to my hair. I can't decide, all I know is it needs some sprucing up. Any ideas?

heh

I found my freshman year school ID and am amazed by how much I've changed.

did I really look like that?!

skiing

today was day one of my epic skiing weekend and it was excellent. i can barely walk, but it was worth it!

i must say though, i got stuck in a FAT patch of ice and my skis went cray-cray and i had to like slide down the side of a black diamond on my ass. which was actually kinda awesome.

the view from the top of the slope was incredible. hopefully tomorrow i can take a better picture.

nocturnal creature

I haven't slept yet and I must say this morning has been fucking awesome in a really cool way. My dad randomly decided it was cool for me to drive his truck (to drop Mireya off at home of course..) and we ended up picking up Julie and just going for the most epic drive ever until 5 in the morning.

So I get home and am inspired to download music and just go INSANE. Um, how have I never realized how fucking amazing dubstep is?!?!? GAH! The song I'm forcing you to listen to on my blog is a dubstep remix of what is probably my favorite song ever.

Yeah and then after I discover the magical amazing world of dubstep I stumble across the work of Banksy. I'm ashamed to say I've been out of the hipster loop when it comes to Banksy but OHMYGOD. HOW HAVE I NOT HOPPED ON THE BANKSY BANDWAGON UNTIL NOW!??!? He = amazing.

So now I'm blogging which is something I thought I was gonna eventually stop doing but I guess not!

I should really go to bed now.. its 9 in the morning..

Rawr.

update?

I haven't really been in the mood to blog lately, but I've been reading all of your lovely blogs that I'm following - you guys are insanely interesting, btw. I have a few random things I want to blog about so here goes.

1.) Strong eyebrows. I absolutely adore androgynous makeup and I decided to give it a go with extremely bold eyebrows. I'm in love with how it looks.

2. Just got back from watching Avatar. Excellent movie! Makes me wish that somehow the indigenous people had defeated the europeans instead of vice-versa. :( Native people are incredible. I'm definitely going on a vision quest journey at one point in my life.

3. The enneagram. I've been speaking to a ton of people about the enneagram and thinking about it even more. Even if you don't buy into typology, you should really give the enneagram a shot. I'll post a video talking all about it in my next entry - it would simply take too much energy to try and write out!

4. So I bought this outrageously cute outfit for my birthday and I never got a chance to wear it!!! It's shameful. I hope some random occasion pops up so I can wear it. It's so damn cute. Champagne colored sequin slip under a sexy long blazer with ankle boot heels. Gah! Excuse me while I go and put it on and roam around the house!

5. I must must MUST have these:

If anyone wants to know these tights are by Pretty Polly, House of Holland.

Ah, sex.

i'm feeling

a lot more peaceful lol. sorry about the erratic posts. i keep putting them up and then feeling like a moron and taking them down.

right now i'm rereading and memorizing the enneagram, which you should really check out if you havent already. and if you don't know what it is, feel free to ask me, julie, emi or chris cheasty. (emi and chris are pretty much enneagram GURUS. I'm so jealous of them..)

but yeah! also you can comment here and i'll def answer any questions you have.

also for your info, i'm a 2 with a 3 wing.

sometimes

i just want to go around and slap everyone that annoys me.

YOU are so FRUSTRATING.

and you'll never read this.

mwhaha.

*slap*