ask me anything?

so i just added formspring which is interesting.. i didn't realize how many weird lurkers i had.. lol

anyway someone asked me this question and I think I'm going to have a go at answering it. the question was "do you think the pictures you post on facebook accurately depict your face and body?"

first of all, do you think facebook actually depicts real people accurately at all? It's the internet.. part of the fun is that you can be as wild and ridiculous as you want and it won't really matter because as fascinating as the internet is, it is not real life.

that being said I'd like to say that like many people, I really have no idea how my face actually looks. honestly. I don't know if I'm pretty or if I'm a total unfortunate hag. Its just not something my brain can proccess. On good days I look in the mirror and see a total fucking bombshell with big boobs and gorgeous eyes and perfectly shaped lips. On bad days I see a washed out fat cow with small boring brown eyes and chapped lips and gross acne scars. Most of the time its a weird mixure of both. So you can see how one might be confused.

When it comes to facebook, pictures are two dimensional and while I usually erase maybe the bags under my eyes or the occasion blemish and maybe the tint of the picture (I like them warmer than my photobooth makes them), theres not much I can do to alter them. I don't have photoshop and am hopeless at it anyway. I can fuck with the angle of the camera but thats really pretty much it. I love seeing all the different ways my face can look. I'm sure none of them really look like I do every day, but the fact that I can look like that is exciting to me. I'm passionate about makeup and I'm constantly wanting to change my look. These pictures are a way for me to do that.

As far as my body goes, I'm not retarded, I know I don't have a supermodel body. My boobs are constantly flucuating making them look weird sometimes and I'm definitely not skinny in ANY way shape or form! That being said, I love it. I love my body soooo much and while I do want to get more toned and lose more of my tummy, I'm not too finicky about it. I'm a bit overweight but I think I look healthy. My legs are getting more and more toned by the day and idk I just really don't have very many issues with my body. People who love the way they look are generally more sexy and I'm not saying I think I'm particularly sexy, but thats where those images come from. Thats why I love taking pictures of the angles of my body. And I'm not ashamed of it at all. If it's offensive, delete me as a friend or stop lurking. I promise I won't be offended.