ebay

Just ordered this top from ebay, I'm so juiced. I finally figured out how to link paypal to my bank account. Maybe that's not such a good thing... haha. next stop: underwater camera.

catch and release.

I do this thing where I chase and hunt down something or someone that I really want, and then once I get it, I take it for granted. And usually I don't realize it until it's way too late. I'm realizing that I'm taking a lot of things in my life for granted and I just hope its not too late to salvage them.

Let's all make a conscious effort not to take each other or anything in our lives for granted, because as cliché as it sounds, you really don't know what you have until you don't have it anymore.

hair

so natalie totally inspired me. currently dying my hair nutmeg. should be a warm dark brown. we'll see.

update: its a cooler dark brown than i expected but i LOVE it. happy suprise :)

I fucking love Banksy

“People are taking the piss out of you everyday. They butt into your life, take a cheap shot at you and then disappear. They leer at you from tall buildings and make you feel small. They make flippant comments from buses that imply you’re not sexy enough and that all the fun is happening somewhere else. They are on TV making your girlfriend feel inadequate. They have access to the most sophisticated technology the world has ever seen and they bully you with it. They are The Advertisers and they are laughing at you.
You, however, are forbidden to touch them. Trademarks, intellectual property rights and copyright law mean advertisers can say what they like wherever they like with total impunity.
Fuck that. Any advert in a public space that gives you no choice whether you see it or not is yours. It’s yours to take, re-arrange and re-use. You can do whatever you like with it. Asking for permission is like asking to keep a rock someone just threw at your head.
You owe the companies nothing. Less than nothing, you especially don’t owe them any courtesy. They owe you. They have re-arranged the world to put themselves in front of you. They never asked for your permission, don’t even start asking for theirs.”

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Banksy

philosophiiiiize

To my understanding, organisms evolve in order to adapt to their environment and its pressures. If that is the case, how come we are conscious? It seems like consciousness is an unnecessary add-on. Or is it possible that consciousness is an illusion?

nightmares

ugh last night i had the worst nightmare ever. i was stuck in a situation that is pretty realistic with people that I know and I handled the situation really badly and ruined my relationship with a couple of people but then realized that I was dreaming and kept insisting to the people in my dream that I only acted that way because we were all in a dream but everyone just thought I was crazy. I pointed out parts of the dream that didn't make sense and couldn't possibly be reality but it didn't help anything. Finally I convinced myself that I wasn't dreaming and that what had happened was real life and I got SOOOO depressed I can't even tell you.

and then I woke up. and looked at the clock and saw that it was 1:40pm which means that I had missed my spanish class. and then I looked outside and slowly realized that what had happened in the "dream" was actually still real life and that I wasn't going to be able to escape it and I had a nervous breakdown.

and then I woke up again and saw that it was only 9:20am.

fucking weird.

sex questions and such

I've received about 3439827432874 questions on my formspring asking me about sex and all that goes under the large umbrella of sex, and I've decided to forward all those questions to a blog that I think can do a lot of good:

the blog itself is: HERE

you can ask questions: HERE

sex shouldn't be a closed subject and if there is anything you want to ask, or even just discuss, that blog is always open.

i'm in the mood

to beat the shit out of someone.

just saying.